staying still

as much as I want to leave, I still want to stay.

Medical Issues....

I am so sick of prescription medication for my extreme back pain. I am only 35 and they want me to take 6 to 9 Oxycontin a day & wear a morphine patch... I will be dead by 45 if i do that... Why wont my doctor just prescribe a safe & effective alternative? Why am I forced to find some crack pot doctor to give money to & get a potentially non-legal Marijuana Prescription? I am not some crazy recreational user, I think recreational use might be a bad thing. I am a father in pain that wants to enjoy my life with my family - not drool & piss on myself. I beg you - reschedule Marijuana for prescriptive use... Until then, I guess i will just have to deal with breaking federal laws... How do you tell your family that you are making a choice to violate federal laws - that you are willing to become a criminal to avoid addiction to dangerous drugs? What happens if I get caught & go to prison? I guess having as much time as I can with my family instead of being a zombie around them is worth the chance i have chosen to take.